Pray for me

My heart has been hurting like it never has before. Yesterday at church I just stopped to think about all the different people that have come into our lives and how each one of them affects us in some way. I couldn't help it, and I had to let it out. I hadn't prayed and cried for all these people like I should be. I can't answer all the questions that I have in my head, or in my heart. Why do things happen the way that they do? Why are we as Christians, that have the same God, act so differently? We are to be in one accord. I can't help but think about the situations that happen and wonder why? Why are our families so messed up? Why do people choose to follow their own well being instead of others? Why can't people just get up and go to church when the doors are open? So many questions, and I know that the only one that can answer me is God. I do know one thing, good ole Bro Sammy Allen said, a lot of these things happen because we aren't filled with the spirit. How can we be filled with the spirit, if we don't have fellowship with our Saviour. We don't read our bible like we should, we don't pray like we should, we don't go to church like we should. Please pray for me, I have this sadness and I really want it to go away.